For the first time in my life, I am getting paid to write.
I was six years old when I started to write something with sense — something with a plot, I shall say. It was a horror thriller short story that my father thought could be published in a comics magazine. I can still remember that day in the summer of 1995, I wrote the story titled “The Venomous Egg” at the back of election day sample ballots. I read it aloud to my brother, who was four years old that time. My father heard me and he was very proud that he showed off my story to the neighborhood.
I can also remember keeping diaries and writing letters as soon as I have learned how to write sentences. Early in life, I have already felt a strong relationship with words, papers, and anything that can be used to write anything.
A writer is also a reader. At fourteen, I had finished reading a novel for the first time. What could be better than an awakening through “The Wakefields of Sweet Valley”? I have also been collecting books since then and my runners-up include “Tuesdays with Morrie”, “The Hobbit”, and “The Diary of a Young Girl”. And this, folks, is what I call “archivist syndrome starter pack”. I have read almost 200 books in my lifetime, excluding law books, and have taken track of them at Goodreads. I have about 500 books and have not stopped collecting. When I am not reading, I am writing, and vice-versa. Needless to say, I have become a loner, a weird loner. This has made me friends with a very few souls and too many fictional characters.
I had always been part of the school publications and had participated in writing and editing competitions. I have also gained readership, and frenemies, through the defunct Friendster blog, and have almost met the perpetual sentence of my writing relationship through WordPress.
I have always loved writing. Even when I am asleep, I’d like to think that I am writing. I can write anytime anywhere, as long as I am undisturbed externally. I have fantasized about becoming a published author — a poet and a memoirist. But I do not like sit down or lie down, as the case may be, and write to please the readers. I write to commune with myself and the world and be able to relay through words what I sense and build a common spot somewhere in the heavens. That when they read me, our thoughts will meet. That every time they think of what I have written, we will meet again and again, endlessly. I want to create something that will linger forever ready to be utilized by humanity anytime.
Writing is not a job to profit from. I have been writing for twenty-five years and it is only recently that I have gotten to be paid to do it. Whether or not for monetary gain, writing is not an eight-to-five job. It is a 24/7 on-call job that requires one to drop everything when the muse comes. And when the muse is gone, it’s gone. One needs all the luck in the world to summon it back. It is also a game of chance to become didactic and stumble upon something new and great. It is a job that requires coordination of head, heart, and hands before one can submit something and be unable to take it back.
New Year resolutions may be a cliché, but for 2020, I resolve to keep on writing and make a room for the muse to come a little more often.